Guest Post: KD Carrillo - Self Destruct

K.D. Carrillo - Self Destruct

• Pub Date: November 1, 2013
• Publisher: KD Carrillo
• Format: Paperback/Ebook, 221 pages
• Age Range: New Adult

Becca Scott spent years burying her traumatic past under alcohol and boys. With the help of her best friend she struggled to accept herself and let go of the pain. She thought she had her life under control for once, until she met Aiden.

Aiden Ryan lives with constant self-hatred. He allowed those close to him to manipulate his life for their own gain, because he felt he deserved it. He was resigned to marry a woman he didn't love, until he met Becca.

Becca and Aiden try and let go of their painful pasts to be together, but will their pasts let go of them?

Why I Wrote Self Destruct

by K.D. Carrillo

A few people have asked me how I came to write Self Destruct. I've given the standard, "It just came to me," answer, but that wasn't being completely honest. Here is the real reason I wrote it:

I wrote Self Destruct last year during a really difficult time in my life. It was clear that my marriage of ten years was falling apart, and I started trying to figure out what went wrong. This led me to wondering how it could have worked out.

I met my husband when I was twenty, and we were friends for almost a year before we started dating. Once we got together we were living together after two months and engaged after four. Looking back now I see that we were destined to get divorced, but I was young and believed I was in love.

I was a lot like my main character Becca when I was twenty. Some of the issues that Becca faces in the book were fictionalized, but I admit that I handled my problems in much the same way she did. I partied too much, drank too much, and hooked-up with all the wrong guys.

Back then I thought I needed to find someone to "save me" from myself. Perhaps that was the root of the problems in my marriage. I was looking for something from my husband that can't be found outside of yourself. I've learned you can't fix another person, but sometimes, if you're lucky, you find someone that can give you the strength to fix yourself.

That is what Aiden became for me, the person who stands by you, but doesn't try and solve your problems. The person who knows the demons that live inside you, but is able to look past them.

I've since learned that the person who supports you isn't necessarily your spouse. My best friend, editor, and all around favorite person in the world gave me the support I needed to both finish the book, and face my problems head on. Anyone who has read my books, or plans to will find her written into each one. She was the one who pulled me out of my self-destructive streak in college, and kept me from falling back on old behaviors.

So that's the story of the people and events that inspired me to write Self Destruct.

I've made up stories for as long as I can remember. My teachers accused me of daydreaming too much, so I figured it was only fair to share my fantasies with everyone. Author of the Central Coven and Destroy series, but probably best known as a sarcastic smart ass.

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